Finding the Perfect Job (it's not easy imo)

Hey guys , 

Today what struck upon me when I was working is, "when will the perfect job come to me?". Lets just make sure you guys know some pretext. . My family isn't in the best shape right now and I've only worked 2 jobs in my life.. The jobs I get hired for is serving and I still do today. I don't like it nor hate it but these past months I've been just looking at myself in the mirror. Pondering the thought that I feel like I could do so much more, though I am thankful they took me in because I need the money. I just wished that I could get a job that I had planned for in the beginning of my career journey. .I mean like, I know I maybe acting spoiled with the job I already have at the moment, but for sure in my life I don't want to be stuck as a server. I don't know =/ maybe it is just me having second thoughts. Since beggars aren't choosers and you can guess what position I am in atm lol =P  . . Though I am not ashamed of it, I pictured myself doing a job that I will at least have fun doing.  

Hmm... and you know whats else is cheesing me with this? My ever so amazing father. My relation with him wasn't the greatest since young and still is. However, to think that when he drives to me work or does anything that helps me somehow benefit to my work. He now thinks that he's the biggest contributor in me, getting my job. I know I can't drive and all -- I even planned myself to take the bus. But because he drives me now he feels like I'm obligated to pay him for "gas fees" and "family expenses". -__- Really? I'm a fucking minor for gods sakes. I don't even make enough to have three zeroes in my pay check. URGG LET ME SAVE UP FOR UNIVERSITY GOD DAMMIT, cause I know you messed up with my savings account with your ever so infamous gambling addiction SO NOW I better start saving... THE LEAST YOU CAN do is not ask me for money. Gosh.... He kept trying to anxiously persuade me but not blatantly to pay him, he asks for 80% of what I get in my pay check. Where the 20% goes back to me. . . Now imagine I work only a limited amount of days because the place I was hired in , had took me in on a special request and was never hiring in the first place. I make less then 3 zeroes so imagine .-.... my 80% gone. . to the finger tips of someone I loath. Now , the thoughts that may go to your head is "why not say no?". Ha . . . if only it was ever so easy. 

Since he was a part of the reasons why my family is a slump. He uses the family card on me and because I do care about my family ( though I don't show it well) I just feel guilty that if I don't pay him , its naturally going to hurt back the family in the end. So.. I don't know. I'm lost and thinking about actually giving him the money I worked hard for. While he sits at home watching tv,  reading newspaper and whatever he does I don't really care about. 

So this brings me back to the perfect job.. I know maybe when I get older I'll maybe get it, but it sucks. I feel like im not working for me but for him. Fuckmeright.jpg =/ . To anyone who does read my personal stories, please don't pity me. Why?

1. I'm thankful that people actually care to read what I say , or even have a interest in my life. And making someone in a depressed or sad mood isn't my forte.
2. I have this mindset in my head that pushes anyone who pities or is sad for me. Fall into my public zone because probably they feel obligated to help. But if you really got to know me then you'll understand that i'm not just a sad story. Just a kid with extraordinary problems xP. 
3. LIVE LIFE AND MOVE ON. I only write these to express what's going in my head since I find that writing things out is my outlet. A  healthier way then what I used to do.

Anyways . . . My question for you guys is have any of you guys found your perfect job? If you don't have a job yet , what job are you thinking about going for?  :)) I wish all of you best of luck.

Bye bye~!